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- Friday, 04 November 2016 19:55
A new school year is just around the corner. Can you believe it? We're senior's this year! I can't believe it. These next few years will determine our lives forever. I've dreamed about wearing this uniform forever. I wonder what opening ceremony will be like! I wonder which desk I'll sit at. I wonder if they'll sell sweet bread in the cafeteria still! I'm so excited for the most simple of things. Yes I know, I'm being silly. It's silly, isn't it? To want to care about what bento box color I should buy, or who I might get a confession from on the rooftop??? But really, there's something in me that tells me I need to enjoy this. This simple, easy going, slice of life.
Why? I'm not sure. To be honest I can't place my finger on it. It's like this egging notion that squeezes on my heart. A feeling I get sometimes to take every moment as a gift. Is that strange? To feel like I might not have a tomorrow? I know, I know, I'm rambling nostalgic. But it is! Nostalgic, that is. Hmm? Oh you know, everything. You, the air, that music. You hear it, don't you? Maybe it's just me. I swear someone keeps playing it in the music room. Playing it and I remember it. It makes me feel...sad.
No, I'm not normally the depressive sort. I know. I'm fine! Really! Pinky-swear I'm not hiding anything. Maybe I've gotten ahead of myself with the coming year. Seniors! Surely something beautiful will happen. Surely we'll have a chance to live our rose colored life! Surely this year will be inspirational, and my Senpai will help me to get ahead! I'll go to a good school, meet a perfect love, get a job I adore and grow up to have a family. You know, a perfect life. Something tells me if I want it bad enough, that's possible. A perfect...life. Oh! Goodness! Where are these tears coming from, really!? I don't understand why I'm crying. Just that...I'm terrified. Terrified I can have none of these dreams at all. How strange...